Haven't been doing any NBE at all lately, I feel almost completely burnt out and unmotivated. For those who are new and just starting out - welcome! My primary routine includes Noogleberry and PM!
I have to cycle PM so now I'm just waiting for my period to start, (the new PM routine will be what's considered an overdose at 600mg per day during the follicular phase, and the recommended daily dose of 300mg per day during the luteal phase. Last month I didn't cycle PM and maintained a daily dose of 600mg PM per day. I had incredible swelling (1cm away from a C cup!) But my period was about 1.5 weeks too early and it started with 3 days of spotting and 2 days of relatively heavy discharge. It then stopped almost abruptly. Let's just say that was an abnormal experience for me.
In the previous months when I cycled 600mg PM, my periods were perfectly on time, and normal. My mood swings lasted only 1-2 days per month instead of the usual 4 days. I ought to mention that PM is also great for the skin, I definitely look younger (last year I was also considering botox, the PM seems to have temporarily sorted this out).
I thought it would be important for me to share this feeling anyway, after all it is part of my journey. My focus at this point is to drop my weight (yet another one of my insecurities)...and I'm pretty sure the little growth I've seen will disappear with the extra weight. I often wonder if I was just seeing things; how much of the extra growth was due to the weight gain.
Today's measurement update: band size: 72cm, bustline: 86.5 (luteal). Again, I take the mode average after measuring over 5 times. This 1cm loss in bustline is extremely obvious, it makes all the difference. The larger you are, the more obvious 1cm of growth is, because the volume of bust also increases. It's just like when you're skinny, 1 single Kg of weight put on becomes very obvious. So yeah, I'm bummed out.
I also can't really Noogle anymore because my boobs are always tender. I try, and last only about 20 minutes or so (release method). I don't know if that's enough to make a difference.
I'll be locking myself in this Valentine's day because I feel hideous. I feel fat with a flat chest, it's like I'm on this downward spiral.