Re: starting pictures - rupert
id be alright because i dont have a life right now lol. my mum would have to look after me though and id have to go to hers. i imagine it hurts A LOT afterwards and im sure that would make me unhappy for a while....then what if they went wrong 6 months or so down the line and i had to have them done again. some celebs now even have them removed and NOT replaced due to problems they have had with them. they must have scars and look deflated from the stretching and have scars.
anyway my NB journey is just not going well. I had a session yest for an hour and a half to 2 hours and had no swelling, everytime i noogle now i get red blobs that look like blood on my left nipple where i get esczma and then it turns into esczma ( i reall hate that word i cant spell it) , so i have a poorly discarging nipple today from it, it will clear up in a few days if i put a cream from the docs on it,emoliant cream or something, which isnt healthy if you use it all the time like me, but what am i meant to do to clear it up? anyway any ideas? I found this cream the other day on a forum:
but this is for nursing mums, but i wonder if it would work for esczma. I knew it would be a problem before i started the NB though, and knew id have to work around it. but it means i can only noogle like every 3 days. I managed to get a tiny bit of swell at the end of week 2 but that was noogling in the morning and evening for 2 hours, 2 days in a row, and luckily my nipple was ok.
i need to really get some tape and tape over a cotton wool pad over each nip.
right now though i really need to be concentrating on my move and packing !!
im being horrible really horrible to myself with food and binge eating, in a self destructive way, as a punishment, as self abuse. I need to try and remember that binging is self abuse. i think i think that my body is so disgusting so i think "so what" that im binging. this is actually hard to think about what i am doing to myself. but if i stopped binging in the long run i would feel and look better and be healthier and mabe have more respect for my body and myself.