rhonda jean
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That's the question posed by my girlfriend a few months ago. I still don't have a good answer. Without going into a lengthy biography, I had a major job change 5 months ago. Didn't have to cut my hair, and I still keep my brows waxed and wear my nails long, but that's absolutely the extent of "feminine expression" I can get by with. Other than that, I love my job. On the other hand, my girlfriend is accepting and encouraging. I spend nearly every weekend at her house, 3 hours away from where I live. Basically, I spend Friday evening through Monday morning as a female. The rest of the time as a male.
I've settled into a routine of pumping 20-30 minutes every morning and 30 minutes every evening. I don't particularly enjoy doing it, I just do it. It's like taking medicine. I don't think I have any real growth, but I do get substantial swelling, and pumping twice a day is frequent enough that the swelling never quite goes away. This became apparent when I recently had to go two days without pumping, and at the end of the two days I looked in the mirror and was reminded of how flat I really am.
The quick answer to the question is, "There are a lot of guys who have manbbobs. Five days a week they'll just be manboobs." Fast forward to a bit of reality. First of all, I'm 5'9, 140 pounds. Not exactly the build of a person who'd typically have manboobs. Second, that's not what I'm after. The whole point is to have feminine breasts. Reality is, much of this comes down to wearing a bra... every day. Let's say I was able to achieve a B or C cup. Without support (five days a week) my breasts simply would not have the feminine appearance I desire.
She said, and I have to agree, I needed to start wearing a bra every day, everywhere I went. Not to pick and choose where. Everywhere. Work, visiting family and friends, everywhere. After a period of time, if I'm willing and able to do that, then start wearing my silicone inserts (about a cup size) every day. If I can't do that, I'm basically wasting my time.
At another time in my life I wore a bra every day for a year and a half. Didn't have to, just wanted to. I had little to no angst about doing so. This time it's different. The idea of "having to" gives it an entirely different spin.
At this point, I've worn a bra every day and every where for about two and a half months. Today was my first day of wearing inserts. It's cooler and I can wear heavier clothes, so it's pretty unnoticealble. So... what am I going to do when once again the weather warms up? Will I still be willing to wear a bra with inserts? Will I be a B cup by then and have to deal with wearing a bra to support my own breasts? Just how will I deal with having breasts I can't remove?
Fact is, the lifelong fantasy of having breasts is great. Now I've found a method (Noogleberry) that may be able to make that fantasy a reality. Given that (for talking purposes) I'm a female for 1/3 of my life and male for 2/3, am I putting at risk 2/3 of my life for the fulfillment of 1/3? I know this question has implications for things besides having breasts and wearing bras and is a constant balancing act for a crossdresser, but for the purposes of this forum let's limit the quandry to the breast issue. Are you dealing with this? Have you already dealt with it? Have you thought about how you're going to deal with it?
I've settled into a routine of pumping 20-30 minutes every morning and 30 minutes every evening. I don't particularly enjoy doing it, I just do it. It's like taking medicine. I don't think I have any real growth, but I do get substantial swelling, and pumping twice a day is frequent enough that the swelling never quite goes away. This became apparent when I recently had to go two days without pumping, and at the end of the two days I looked in the mirror and was reminded of how flat I really am.
The quick answer to the question is, "There are a lot of guys who have manbbobs. Five days a week they'll just be manboobs." Fast forward to a bit of reality. First of all, I'm 5'9, 140 pounds. Not exactly the build of a person who'd typically have manboobs. Second, that's not what I'm after. The whole point is to have feminine breasts. Reality is, much of this comes down to wearing a bra... every day. Let's say I was able to achieve a B or C cup. Without support (five days a week) my breasts simply would not have the feminine appearance I desire.
She said, and I have to agree, I needed to start wearing a bra every day, everywhere I went. Not to pick and choose where. Everywhere. Work, visiting family and friends, everywhere. After a period of time, if I'm willing and able to do that, then start wearing my silicone inserts (about a cup size) every day. If I can't do that, I'm basically wasting my time.
At another time in my life I wore a bra every day for a year and a half. Didn't have to, just wanted to. I had little to no angst about doing so. This time it's different. The idea of "having to" gives it an entirely different spin.
At this point, I've worn a bra every day and every where for about two and a half months. Today was my first day of wearing inserts. It's cooler and I can wear heavier clothes, so it's pretty unnoticealble. So... what am I going to do when once again the weather warms up? Will I still be willing to wear a bra with inserts? Will I be a B cup by then and have to deal with wearing a bra to support my own breasts? Just how will I deal with having breasts I can't remove?
Fact is, the lifelong fantasy of having breasts is great. Now I've found a method (Noogleberry) that may be able to make that fantasy a reality. Given that (for talking purposes) I'm a female for 1/3 of my life and male for 2/3, am I putting at risk 2/3 of my life for the fulfillment of 1/3? I know this question has implications for things besides having breasts and wearing bras and is a constant balancing act for a crossdresser, but for the purposes of this forum let's limit the quandry to the breast issue. Are you dealing with this? Have you already dealt with it? Have you thought about how you're going to deal with it?
