Needing Confidence

[tryn2bconfident]

Hi all.
I have battling my self confidence issues for quite a while now. I had horrible past experiences with my past relationships and I am presently married to a wonderful man.
However, he is a man....and of all men gets a reaction to big beautiful breasts and cleavage.
I feel ashamed and embarrassed that I will not or have not been able to give him that 'scenic view'.
one time watching a movie, on a trailer for american pie...three girls lifted their tops to expose themselves...of course beautiful breasts emerged and his eyes just popped out of his sockets.
then when we are out his eyes seems to focus on pretty tops baring deep cleavage...
it all makes me feel ugly and ashamed of my small A36. they are not full and not even pretty to look at. (as I have nursed three children)
All my sisters are in their D cups and wear pretty tops and dresses and I feel uncomfortable with him around my family.
he says he loves me, feels that I fit perfectly in his hand and I am everything he needs and desires.
but...of course he is drawn to larger....it just makes me feel so embarrassed and uncomfortable about myself. losing my self confidence. I know he loves me.
I told him that I purchased a noogleberry system, although he didn't say anything about that he likes me the way I am...he hates that I am not happy with myself because he thinks I am everything for him....
But I hope it works...I know you say it takes time and I have only been using it for nearly two weeks...I have tried PM but that doesn't seem to be working. I want to hopefully achieve something so I can wear pretty dresses and tops and maybe even a bikini...(when I loose my belly fat.)
Just thought I would share....it seems I am not the only one who feels ashamed of their size...thank you for making me feel not alone. :'(

 

[cleo]

It's really sad that your past experiences have made you feel so bad about yourself, despite now being married to a wonderful man but at least you've now made the decision to try and do something about it by purchasing the Noogleberry system. You'll get a lot of support from members on this forum and will realise that a lot of ladies share these feelings. You say PM hasn't worked for you, how long have you been taking it for? Also, it would be a good idea to post some stats so you can keep a check on your progress and others can encourage you.

Best Wishes

Cleo

 

[reeree]

Hey tryn2bconfident,

Just wanted to stop by and tell you you are SO not alone! I too have always felt horrible about my small boobs :-[ I'm a VERY small 32A, and thanks to nursing two kids....well, you know how unflattering that makes them look!!! My husband has always told me that a handful is all guys REALLY need, but imagine my thrill when one of his buddies gave him a going away gift (he's in the Navy) of big breast porn.....Great! He's gonna be looking at Those for 10 months, and then come home to my flat chest!! The only thing i used to really have going for me was a nice flat, toned stomache!!! But after two c-sections, i feel like i'll never be confident with anyone seein even an inch of my stomache! If my shirt accidentally rides up, i'm Horrified at someone seeing the wrinkly shriveled skin :'(
We all have something, or multiple things, that we don't feel beautiful about. But in the end, i know my husband really does love me for who i am, and that that means a whole ton more than how big my boobs are!!! Now, i certainly am hoping my noogleing helps them plump up before he gets home ;D But in the end, I found the man of my dreams, who loves me to the moon and back, and am determained to be thankful for that, and the wonderful life i have

Best of wishes, and good luck with your pumping

 

[FaithnLove]

I hear ya girl. I had a dream about a year ago that comes to mind. For some reason there was this part where I was in this like Mexican bar type of environment and I guess there were rooms in it. Some guy wanted to show me a particular room and when I walked in I saw a beautiful woman who kept saying how small her breasts were. Like she was really unhappy and down about it and the impression I got in the dream is that she had felt that way about herself her whole life, and I just remember being completely baffled because she was so pretty like physically but also as a whole, like the vibe I got from her - and yet she was depressed about something so minor!

Of course this dream could very well apply to me lol - a sort of digging up on my own issues and seeing it from another perspective but.. How do I put this.
About two years ago I sort of went on a journey... I had a "spiritual emergence" and of course was deemed crazy by those who simply did not understand or had any experience with what I was going through. Anyway, I finally came back to "earth" about a year ago. What's interesting is, sure I don't have the ideal body type or whatever you want to call it, YET I felt very empowered. Very very empowered being in my body, being 100% natural, being healthy, etc. I don't know how to explain it but I literally thought I was a goddess. lol. And whats strange is I guess along with that mentality I ended up getting hit on a lot more than usual. Like I remember I went to the gym one day, and I am telling you I wasn't even in this dimension - I was actually trying to ground myself by eating healthy and working our furiously lol - glad to say it worked - but I was sitting on the edge of this couch, no bra lol and I was like A cup at the time, bedhair like crazy you dont even wanna know, NO makeup and girl I got like hereditary dark circles- and apparently this guy passing by thought I was just hot stuff and gave me his number despite my refusal to give mine? Like seriously now? I guess my point is it's all in how YOU view yourself.

Easier said than done maybe but the best way is to start by pretending you are beautiful. Inside and out. Which you don't even need to pretend because you really are. But just play pretend. Try some meditation if you haven't already, 20 mins a day does wonders. It may not grow boobs but I'm tellin you once that self love starts to bloom I honestly believe everything will manifest much faster. Thats another thing, send love to your boobies! To your entire body! Forgive it accept it for the beautiful creation that it is. It is your temporary costume! Have fun with it but just remember, it is only a costume. Don't get lost in the details. That's all I have for now but I hope you know your really not alone. I love you! I must sound crazy but I promise I'm not

 

[tryn2bconfident]

Thank you ladies. Your words are very supporting and honest.
Sometimes it just crushes me when I see him look and acts very stupid by stuttering and acting nervous...maybe even if it innocent.
but yes, he does love me and I am very thankful for that. because he really is a wonderful man.
He cooks, does laundry, tidies up and loves my children.
I feel he is the unfortunate one. after acts of stupidness. :-\
but, it is hard for me to feel good about being flat.
I understand how it feels for your man to look at those mags, Chloe. One of my first boyfriends (when I was younger of course...lol) did that alot, I couldn't stay with him because he eventually..showed he didn't love me. I am glad for you finding a wonderful man for you. hope you get to surprise him as you hope upon his return.
I haven't had trouble with men being interested in me...but with my husband...i am so very self conscienous because he is the one who I am intimate with, even though he says I have everything he needs. is just a handful. I just feel embarrased when he looks and then sees me. you know what I mean?
I feel like I am rambling now.
I just have to get over this feeling, start feeling better about myself and keep noogling. with good thoughts...
Oh. I started taking PM the beginning of the year. 3 a day. and I tried herbs before too. I am going to continue the PM though until it is done.
I should get my stats together....too shy to post any pics.
Thanks again girls. You made me feel better. :-*

 

[MariahsDs]

TRyn2b,

I can totally relate to your situation. I had my first child at 18. I was super fit and had a great body. I was previously a gymnast, sprinter, and model. Everywhere I would go guys would be trying to hook up with me. This was great for my confidence and I really felt great about myself. However, I still wanted bigger boobs.

After having my first child, my body turned into a disater! I had stretch marks nearly everywhere, my boobs were just empty skin, my butt was sagging, and I felt horrible. I was depressed for a little while, I am thinking to myself "WTF!" I really didn't see that coming. It ended up causing a lot of problems in my relationship. I felt that I would get cheated on because I didn't look good anymore at all. I never wanted to have sex or be intimate because I didn't want to show my body.

Then, THANK GOD FOR THE INTERNET! I began searchiong online how to do this and how to do that. That was about 6 years ago. Today, I am feeling much better about myself. I figured out ways to change everything I didn't like about myself that made me feel so insecure. I am no where near to having the body I desire but I am much closer now than I was 6 years ago. My confidence is getting much better, I look at myself and think "wow!". I try to find all the things I DO like about myself, and work on the things I do not like about myself.


My advice to you would be to fake it til you make it. Many of the movie stars or porn stars have had something done to them. I can say I am all natural and I still look good! I really do not think guys like the plastic looking girls. Furthermore, those same women people wished they looked like have thier own insecurities. It is really hard to believe. I read somewhere that Melissa Ford hates her body. She is very beautiful and has an amazing body to me. So it is all about how you view yourself. I am confident that you will see results with NB if you are consistent and patient. As you see more and more results from NB you will feel less and less like this. So look at the pics for motivation and know that will be you in a little while from now. I hope that can ease your mind a little until you get the results you want.

 

[daylight]

well said

 

[tryn2bconfident]

Hi girls.

well, i'm back and had no problems travelling with my nb. I put it in my big luggage, and if they searched, I placed the info paper on top.

well, I haven't seen any results and have taken a break for just over a week now, since my return. oh well.
my confidence is lacking, as I haven't been well in my relationship. before I left...my husband was helping me volunteer at a function, and there was another volunteer there with a deep low cut v neck, he was plain and uncontrollably looking at her cleavage. plus...there have been numberous times when we have gone out to dinner, he has intensly watched the waitress (with big clevage) write our names down on the waiting list, there was no need for him to watch her write our names down...come on!
So that's how I left things before I left on my trip...and to come back hoping he missed me...but only to find him jumping out of bed first thing in the morning, and forgeting the beautiful mornings we used to spend together before I left....oh...plus there was a trailor to a movie we rented, where three girls lifted up their tops and his jaw dropped and eyes wide open...guess how I felt that night?
so...no, I haven't been feeling the best these days...and I have told him that I do not want to be intimate until I feel better about myself because instead of making me feel better, he made me feel more insecure of myself by his actions...or reactions...
Thanks for listening.

 

[janonthemtn]

hi tryn2be confident,

i know how you feel. one guy i was with told me i looked like a boy, maybe there was

something positive that came out of that, as that is when i went on the quest to

find a way to improve my breasts. if you read my previous posts you can read it all.

anyway i describe my breasts as someone here did theirs,"2 fried eggs". after much

research i found noogleberry and lucy!!!!!!!!! now, it will be 2 years in july, i am a

very full c small d. i think i am actually a d now but have not bought regular size d

bras yet. vs d's are too small for me,( they run small) so learning patience with this

is a must but i don't think you will be disappointed.

i am now married to a great guy but he had been divorced and alone for 16 years.

you can imagine that he was used to oogling all young, well endowed females.

i had to explain to him the problem it presented to me, (especially when we met

i sill was almost flat chested)

he is much better about it now and i figure he uses his time away from me to take

advantage of the available views. i do think it's rude when out together, a man

thinks it's ok to twist his head off checking out the newest babe in town.

i know some may feel my views are extreme.

with noogleberry and improvement in your appearance, it will help you feel better

about yourself. i hope you can speak to him and he considers your feelings.

you also need to improve your own view of yourself in any way you think you can.

do things, even small things that make you happy. if there are more emotional things

that may be helped by confiding in a good friend then try that. just remember you

are more than any of your body parts, the spirit inside you is what really counts.

any man that can't appreciate that, well.............

so, be encouraged, you have found a wonderful resource here, just give it time,

be persistant, even if you are tired, cold(that's usually my excuse) sore, what-

ever, breasts need regular stimulation to encourage cells to grow.

read all you can about supplements that can help, and if you need to gain

a few extra pounds don't be afraid to. work out to keep it all toned and tight.

my best to you, janonthemtn

 

[tryn2bconfident]

Thank you for your kind and reassuring words janonthemtn.

He knows how I feel about myself, and does his best to reassure me, but sometimes when he touches me ...there... I feel I disappoint him and am embarrased. He loves me, but I would like to feel confident infront of him, I don't even let him see me dress.
I know that I have to change the way I view myself and at least do some workouts to loose my flab. at least that is what I can do for myself...and hope that with patience and noogling will help up there.
summer time is coming soon, and I feel down when we walk along and see pretty dresses and low cut tops, bikini's at the beach...swimming...it's so embarrasing for me.
I used to feel outgoing and very confident...but I just feel I wish I were better for him, even though he says he loves me the way I am.
But, eyes wander, and I can't help feeling I disappoint him by not being able to wear a those things for him.
But, I did buy myself a bra that actually makes me look like I have breasts, even though I can't show it off to him, cause when it comes off, well, small 36a.
but I will try to be more positive and accept my husbands reassurance, continue with the pm and noogling...

hmm. two years? I guess it's worth a shot. can't do any harm to keep trying.

 

[MariahsDs]

Hi,

I have been noogling for 9 months in total, although I have taken a couple of months off. The time actually went by so fast, I can't believe it has been 9 months already. As long as you are actively doing something about it everyday, then you will see the results you want, no matter how big or impossible they may seem. I would suggest to pump as much as you can, because you will see faster results, which helps to keep you going and keep you motivated. Trust me I know exactly how you feel. Afterall, after having my kids and breastfeeding I was left with prettty much sagging skin for breasts.

As for your husband staring, I agree with janonthemtn, it is pretty rude to do it in front of you. However, I catch myself staring at girls with big breasts too, especially if they are right in my face. If I can't help it and I am a straight female, how can guys help it? I am not saying it's ok, but I do it all the time with no harm intended, so I am wondering if this is the same thing for "some" guys.

Working out will make you feel so much beter about yourself, I can almost guarantee it. Not only does it release endorphins, it will also make you look better, and therefore feel better about yourself. Usually our insecurities do not come from us, but rather what other people have that we do not. Meaning that because someone else looks better, than we don't look good. In order to work around this, we must make ourselves look the best possible (whatever that may be to you). By you looking as good as you can, the other "girls" (big breasted, low cut, bikini wearing, etc) will not look any better than you (in your mind) because you will also have big breasts (just as big as theirs), a flat 6 pack abs, toned body, etc. You know what I am saying?

Just keep pumping. Look at pictures of bodies you want to have, by doing this often, you confirm this to yourself that this is what you want and by thinking "this is what you want", you will then act upon it, until you can't remember why you even felt that way because you look so wonerful.

Hope that helps, Mariah

 

[tryn2bconfident]

I recieved my xldomes May 31, 2010. I decided to purchase these because the med ones weren't doing a thing...i'd deflate almost immediately after I took the cups off and I had been trying for maybe three months. I have restarted taking my PM, which I put on hold for about a month.
But yesterday after my session actually gave me some hope. The swelling lasted a couple of hours! After reading all your posts and not noticing anything in myself wished i could see something by now. I would like to try half an hour in the morning before I leave for work, and an hour after work. I tell the kids I need some personal time, and they are happy playing outside anyways. Things are going well with my husband and me. He has reassured me it was not his intent to hurt me like that, but just as MariahDs has mentioned, I guess I too look at the low cut tops too because sometimes it is just smack dab there, and I can't help but look at him and try to catch him...because he will. but not on purpose...thank you for that comment, because how stupid it is, I guess it is a normal reaction...and he has assured me that I am all that he wants.
Yes, because it is summer season now, one that I dread....I look forward to keep seeing results and hopefully the swelling will last longer, at least it has given me some hope that my body can change. I have looked at the images of bikini's and try to set a personal goal of at least losing my belly fat. I think that will help out alot too. Most of the women with small chest sizes at least have a smaller body frame, and I feel just giggly.
Here's to keep our heads high, Thanks again for your kind and supporting words.
You all have been an inspiration, and confident.
: :-*