Omgosh,
I'm so very sorry. I haven't been on enough I know,trying to recover, but I truly feel your loss too. It is very hard to put a loved pet down. Think , though, it is better in the long run and believe it or not The Lord loves, and takes care of our four legged children too. He is in a great place now full of catnip, and toys to play with. The good news is that he is watching you from heaven. Please share your loss as long as you need.
Love and hugs Mama :-* :-* :-* :-* :-*