Motivation is one of those slippery topics. Has anyone truly reflected on what it "is"? And where this belief we must have it all the times?
To me motivation is a state of unconscious actions taken to reach a desire or goal. When I'm truly motivated, it seems much of my actions and thoughts will revolve around this desire or goal. I just can't help it and I'm naturally progressing for it.
When I'm not motivated, I get easily distracted and frustrated with my perceived "lack of progress". I begin to doubt if I can really do it or even want it. I may even stop doing actions to further my aims because of this heighten level of frustration which I may not even be completely aware of.
Obviously, I want to be motivated because things just come easier when I'm in this state and my thoughts are naturally positive. But the key observation I think is the notion of unconscious action.
There is a somewhat famous metaphor called "The Ant and Elephant" to describe the relationship between the conscious (aka Ant) and unconscious (aka Elephant) mind. If you've not heard of it then I would encourage a trip online or library to read it (or about it). Since our unconscious mind is constantly under attack for attention from outside (aka advertisers), it is constantly shifting and unfocused but I believe most of our motivation originates from this area. So, I need to find ways to keep my unconscious mind focused on the big goal (aka vision or mission). If I think of it as an elephant then it becomes easier to think about the unconscious mind. If I can feed it and get it moving towards the food it likes then very little will be able to stop it.
NBE is just plain difficult because of its speed. It can takes months before we perceive a change in a positive direction. So this means I have to keep feeding that elephant for months on faith that the rewards will come. So I've been learning about the unconscious mind which is difficult itself since it is hard to observe and influence.
However, I do know this about it. It likes very primitive ideas and "sensations". I think about how larger breasts feel and move. I think about how they would feel on me. I think about how it will look to have large breasts on me. I imagine these down to the smallest detail to make it "real" to me. I do avoid thinking how others will react or treat me because it is too easy to get counter "evidence" and my elephant goes running off. The people around me (and you) will likely wish me to not change and thus do unconscious things on their part to discourage.
I am now reinforcing these images and sensations with real experiences. I find myself moving and positioning my body so my breasts comes in contact with my body. It is a powerful and subconscious message about how it feels to have breasts. I avoid elevators completely now and take stairs because each step is a strong reinforcement of those sensations. A fast walk can have marvellous messages too as the sway and bounce of breasts reminds me. I now feel my breasts on my arms' side when I do dishes. Even wearing a 40B over a 40A bra has helped.
These all keep me going most of the time. But there are times when even this powerful stuff fails. For example, I'm battling this right now as I have a very sick cat with cancer and I will have to experience her death soon. So, now I have no motivation for anything as I am hurting and grieving for her and dreading the visit to the vet to end her suffering. Even in the face of this sorrow, I must continue my efforts and I'm relying on my habits to keep me moving. Eventually, I will enjoy things again but until then I'm going to use all my skills of *dedication* to keep going.
In summary, I'm just saying to find ways to form a strong habit of pumping, feed your elephant with the sensations and images of larger breasts on yourself, and cultivate your dream and keep it in front of you like a huge mountain. Your path to the mountain may vary but the destination never will change and you don't have to rely solely on faith as it is now a certainity.
DJ