Amelie,
Only now I saw this thread!
O.k. my opinion is GO for it!
Once a pone a time...I had this best friend EVER!!! I could talk with him for hours and hours...non stop!!! He was a very very very....interesting guy!!! I first meet him when I was 14 years old...and I already loved someone really bad!!!! So my best friend knew about it... I told him everything about the one I loved. sometimes I came crying to me best friend because the one that I loved didn't pay attention at me....silly....but I was young! so...we were best friends...oooo by the way he was 6 years older than me. One day it hit me! Around the age of 17 I suddenly understood that my best friends had feelings to me... he LOVED me!!! Gosh!!! I was so stupid!!!! I was so afraid that I will hurt him... I told him that I was that he will find a girlfriend that will make him happy! I tried to avoid situations that wont make him love me more. he was really miserable because of me. I really loved the other guy...and I didn't see myself ever with my best friend....everytime that someone said to me that I need to try dating with him... I was like bbbbbbllllllaaaaa..... I can't imagine me touching him...even kiss him...nothing!!! He was too good to lose!!!!! So I just continued to be best friends with him. I knew he wanted much more than that. but one day I think that he understood that our relation ship wont go further than best friends. so he started to look for women... and I really didn't care because I always wished for him that he will find his woman!!! And then........
when I was at the age 18-19 he met someone... He told me that he is going to work in a different contry. At that time I didn't know that he met a woman...he didn't tell me about it. so I didn't want to go and tell him goodbye because I knew that he will comeback soon and I also didn't want to make our situation worse! So he left...
And about a month or two after he left I asked his sister if he is seeing someone. and she said yes!!!
At that moment....my heart fell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was happy for him! I really was!!! but why?? why didn't he tell me that?! I shard with him everything about my life...and he couldn't share with me that he found someone?! that Brock my heart!!! I tried to contact him and one day he wrote to me..and he sent his phone number...so I called...and this woman answers the phone....and I am like "Hi...can I please have _____ (my best friends name)?" and she was like "one moment" after a few days I called him again...and he said to me that I can't call him anymore and that it wasn't nice of me to talk to her like that. he said to me that i should have tell her "Hi..My name is ____ and I am a friend of ___ (my best friends name) can I please talk to him?" - I was like Sh*t! why should I ask her something...I don't know who she is!!! that really pissed me off... then.... I realized that I can't talk with him anymore till he will comeback to our contry. I found my self with my heart broken! I lost my best friend! I cried for months. then one day he came back... surprise surprise...it was on my birthday (no...he didn't make a surprise for me but he came back) then I really really wanted to see him and catch up with him... only after a few days we finally met again. I was in a relation ship with the guy that I loved since I was 14 years old. but I couldn't help myself and I wanted to let my best friend know that I don't want to lose him!!!! He is too important to me. I told him that I want to still be best friends with him...and that I am truly happy for him that he found someone. He said to me that he also doesn't want to ever lose me too...but..... DAM IT!!!! BUT!!!!!!!!! now he doesn't know what to do because that woman doesn't want him to talk with me.... He said to me that I am a great person and it's will be a pitty for him to lose me too!
After a couple of months he left to a different area to live with that woman (DAM HER!!!). I didn't call him or anything....and after a few months I wanted to catch up with him! I also had a dream about him...so I wanted to talk...so I called!!! What a HUGE misstake!!! At first he didn't answer...then after a few minutes I see on my phone that he is calling me back. I was happy and answered the phone with a smile! and then he talked....
He said to me.... "Listen....don't EVER all me again!!! don't send me any emails (never mind that I never sent him Emails) don't send me SMS's! Nothing!" I started to cry...I felt like some hit me!! I could hardly talk.... I cried like a baby on the phone...I wanted to ask him a lot of things and he didn't let me...he said..." you have the opportunity to say nice goodbye to me now...otherwise I will hangup on you and you will lose that one time opportunity"....I was like "but wait!!! wait!!! why?! why?" and he said are you taking the opportunity or not?! So I told him that I really enjoyed our relationship and that I wish him only good in his life! and that I hope that he will find his happines! and I hanged up on his face...ooo...when he said to me that he will hang up on me he said that he has no problem with that and that he will sleep very good at night! (yeah right! - maybe the opposite was true) after I hanged up on him.... I cried...and cried...I couldn't talk with anyone!!! My heart was really really broken...and who brooked it?! my best friend ever!!!! :'(
I sent him an SMS that I don't know what that B**ch did to him...and that he is a really mean person now...suddenly
My phone rang again...and it was him again...so I answered and on the other side was that woman!!! she said to me that first of all she is a good person and also ____ (my bestfriend) and maybe somewere I am too..also she said that she isn't a B**ch. she said to me that I can't call, send SMS's or Email him ever again...otherwise she will involve the police! I asked her what would she do if someone would ask her to bury one of her bestfriends when he is still breathing?! she said that she would have done it! (yeah right!!! lier!) so I said o.k....and I asked her if I can now say a nice goodbye from my bestfriend and she said NO!
I found myself broken for a few good months....maybe even years....I don't remember...I just remember that it was a LONG time!!!
Now I see him once in a while...but he never says "Hi" to me or anything!!! by the way...he got married with that woman!!!
I am married to the guy I loved when I was 14
I know that it may sound weird...but sometimes I wonder how it could have been with my bestfriend....Sometimes I regret that I didn't give it a try...but everything happens for a reason...and maybe it is better that way!!!! But I still wonder....
o.k....sorry for my long post... I just wanted to let you know that you should...
GO FOR IT!!! You have nothing to lose!!! And if things wont go with you too...then at least you wont live your life with regreets!!! and at least you know that you tried!!!
Good Luck dear!!!
And please let us know what happened!!!!