hey Iv had a hard last week or so because of things. this is the first day iv noogled since i last posted. over the last week noogling hasnt mattered. But everyday I still feel uncomfortable becuz of my body. i feel like that i am wasting my life becuz of it and that makes me sad and frustrated and i am jealous of all women who can just go out in nice clothes. i also brought a bra and cut slits in it and put gel pads in again which i used to do. but i cant wear it all the time, i cant wear it cycling or to the gym or in hot weather as its too uncomfortable. It squashes my nipples down too, which cant be good. im figuring ill just wear it when I have to go into town for whatever reason ( i went in yest ) which is once in a blue moon. And if im doing volunteer work that doesnt involve exercise where i am in front of people. I want to do other things tho, i want to do this volunteer work to do with exercise where u may lead exercise classes, but thats just out of the question i cant go in big baggy jumpers and scarfs to hide myself. i just really absolutely hate my body and i am def not living my life becuz of it. iv written all this before but need to write it again. i still do have the quest in my mind shud i go and see the surgeon an then i could just get on with my life, do what i wanted to do in fitness, go to the gym, go swiming andfeel comfortable, wear normal clothes, go out, walk down the street without baggy jumpers and scarfs, have a relationship, have a social life, go to university, stop hiding away!
im hoping i dont get red dots today. i duno why i always got red dots, im sure i wasnt over pumping see, so i dont think u need to overpump to get them.
ccbb - thanks hun. iv just brought some body oil by palmers ( coco butter stuff ) and using that now. i did think of olive oil but worried about the smell afterwards. baby oil actually makes my skin itch i remember it from being a kid. i need loads of sleep! lol im a 9 hour at least person, or im really crabby! my brain just doesnt function without a LOT of sleep lol. its good to hear tho im not the only one frustrated with it. thanku for ur support
evil alex - i hadnt thought of doing one boob at a time. iv tried being on the side with 2 cups but the one im on my side on comes off. next time im too tired to noggle and need to rest i might try this. thanks.