Summer, that was also one of the things that made me change my mind. I have never been unhappy with the shape of my breasts, only size, so the thought that I could get more size but lose the shape was unbearable. My breasts are so tight there would've been no way they would've looked good or natural with implants stuffed into them. And if I had to have them removed, I would never get my former breasts back. It is better to live with constant bad feeling about my breasts than constant fear of something going wrong with the implants.
I read all those 48 reasons, and he has a point in there. That text may be en eye-opener for some women, and that is great, but I'm not sure it would have changed my mind before I did it myself. That's because he doesn't address the underlying problem or offer any other convincing solution to it. He is generally right about everything, but what he misses is that rationalizing it doesn't make it any easier to live with small/nonexistent breasts and the only generally known way out of it is currently - unfortunately - implants. I also have to admit I was a bit annoyed by his way of expression, it felt like he was subtly saying "you are stupid if you really think/feel this way, you should know better." What he can't understand as a man is that it's not only about looks, self-esteem, attention or even male acceptance. It's about the whole experience of being a woman. I always felt like I was deprived of something that is part of other women's lives. The simple feeling of something hanging on your chest, breasts jiggling when you walk, your arm brushing your bust when you cross your arms, filling your shirts and dresses, the feeling of a hand grasping your breast and not your ribs.
It's been impossible for me to explain to myself why very small breasts exist when there are also enormous breasts. The size seems to serve some obvious purpose, and I couldn't help but feel that my lack of size was synonymous to "unfinished", "defective" and "not meant for reproduction". That last one is actually interesting because I don't think I will ever even want children and I don't consciously value myself through my ability to reproduce, but it's a very subconscious thing - the underlying feeling that full breasts symbolize femininity and fertility and that I have failed to accomplish this basic requirement for being a woman. Yes, "failed" is how I generally felt about myself with small breasts. I needed to feel what it was like to have decent breasts, and just learning to love myself wouldn't have given me that experience. (I stress that this was only how I felt about myself, not about other women with small breasts.)
He is right when he says in many cases implants don't solve these problems. But sometimes they do. I have also heard many women telling they wish they had done it earlier. I don't want to belittle that experience. I will never take implants myself or hope that anyone else does it, but I will also never judge or blame anyone for doing it. I've been there, I know what it is like and that sometimes just rationalizing it isn't enough, because it doesn't solve the problem, which is very feeling-based. I really hope they come up with more effective ways to enlarge breasts in the future, so that the only way to get rid of the problem isn't to expose oneself to other kinds of problems. Or maybe a brain washing technique that really makes us believe small breast are so much more awesome than bigger ones.
What a rant, probably no one bothers to even read this ;D This is a subject that provokes a lot of thoughts in me, because it's been a constant battle between how I feel, how I should feel and how I am told by others to feel about myself.
